Get Lower - Becoming a Roller Girl.

I had a baby. Four weeks later, I started Fresh Meat training with my local league, having never been given the opportunity to play a sport in my life. I'm quite literally starting from scratch, trying to make this dream happen.
Spelled ‘ambassador’ wrong. soon2befit: kallmekiara: Finally, someone real!  I would love to have an ass like that!

Spelled ‘ambassador’ wrong.

soon2befit:

kallmekiara:

Finally, someone real! 

I would love to have an ass like that!

So Tuesday.. I had the worst practice ever.  It just so happened to also be my benchmarks testing.  I fucking passed. I PASSED. ASKGHAJRNGAIRNGLADKFJGAKJSDLFM! I was sweating it really really bad. I didn’t do as well as I know I could have, and my test-taking anxiety can easily be blamed for that - whenever anyone is watching, I fall on my face. I couldn’t even believe that I was selected to take the test early among the other freshie girls I’ve looked up to since the beginning, just being asked was so shocking.  I’m so excited. I’m a teeny baby rollergirl! I have a lot of work to do to get on the level with the other girls and keep up, but I’m totally stoked.  This means so much to me. I grew up very, very poor and never played a sport or did anything extra-curricular because we could never afford it. It was really hard to hear about my friends and their soccer games and piano lessons. I’ve never been on a team before. I’ve never done anything like this before - it’s all new. People tease me sometimes because I’m so enthusiastic about it, but a huge appreciation for just being a part of something like this is where that enthusiasm comes from. I have a lot of painful childhood memories of being left out, of knowing about our situation and not being able to change it, and of trying in my own way to make the best of it.. but it was so hard, especially as a little kid. Basically, my point is, if you’re discouraged or in a rough spot and don’t want to practice or contribute just know that there’s probably someone out there who would give anything to have the opportunity to do what you’re taking for granted right now.

So Tuesday.. I had the worst practice ever. 

It just so happened to also be my benchmarks testing. 

I fucking passed. I PASSED.

ASKGHAJRNGAIRNGLADKFJGAKJSDLFM!

I was sweating it really really bad. I didn’t do as well as I know I could have, and my test-taking anxiety can easily be blamed for that - whenever anyone is watching, I fall on my face. I couldn’t even believe that I was selected to take the test early among the other freshie girls I’ve looked up to since the beginning, just being asked was so shocking. 

I’m so excited. I’m a teeny baby rollergirl! I have a lot of work to do to get on the level with the other girls and keep up, but I’m totally stoked. 

This means so much to me. I grew up very, very poor and never played a sport or did anything extra-curricular because we could never afford it. It was really hard to hear about my friends and their soccer games and piano lessons. I’ve never been on a team before. I’ve never done anything like this before - it’s all new. People tease me sometimes because I’m so enthusiastic about it, but a huge appreciation for just being a part of something like this is where that enthusiasm comes from. I have a lot of painful childhood memories of being left out, of knowing about our situation and not being able to change it, and of trying in my own way to make the best of it.. but it was so hard, especially as a little kid.

Basically, my point is, if you’re discouraged or in a rough spot and don’t want to practice or contribute just know that there’s probably someone out there who would give anything to have the opportunity to do what you’re taking for granted right now.

I just preemptively submitted my derby name to the Powers That Be. Here’s hoping!

I’m basically in love with it.

It’s my favourite chick name, and it’s ghostly, because one day.. oh god, one day in the FAR FLUNG FUTURE.. I’ll be a jammer just like a ghost.

We’re doing benchmarks pre-testing tomorrow. I’m totally nervous. I’m going to go for my morning walk with the Bubs, make some vegan chickpea and tofu tikka masala (or vegan makhani, I haven’t decided), possibly bake some bread and just chiiiiill the eff out.

Nerves nerves nerves!

Progress!

I’m tracking my food and workouts on Sparkpeople now! I love it. Before I found out I was pregnant I was using it to track my exercises and runs because I wanted to try out for derby and it kind of fell by the wayside.

Tuesday, at our last practice before the ice goes down on our summer home, we did a practice run of our 25 in 5. I wobbled a bit because I was really concentrating on crossovers and I felt slippy. I hit a plow stop to keep from going outside the track so I had to get back up to speed after that.. and I lost my balance and fell. My gear caught me, and I didn’t feel the floor at all, I was just concentrating on what I was doing. I got back up and kept going.. and I made 24 and a quarter laps. Given that I fell, the coach counted it as 25 which is awesome, but I’m really looking forward to the day when I can say I did it for real. Perfectly. I know I have it in me.. one of these days I’ll hit it.

I can’t believe how much confidence I’ve gained on my skates in the last month and a bit. I’m so much stronger than I was before and I’m so motivated to get better.

We’re in a new practice space now, an old Rona building for the winter. I find the floor much grippier, and kind of freaked myself out at how fast I went when I didn’t feel slippy on crossovers anymore. Our track is shorter, not quite regulation size, so the turns come up much faster than in the last one. Hitting knee drops is a little harder for me on this floor because I find my gear doesn’t slide as nicely, but I’ll take grippy floor over slippy floor any day! 

When I feel like not going to derby, the girl who’s got a hit saved up for me is going.When I don’t push myself as hard as I can go, the jammer I want to become gets that much further away.My legs give out on me, I’m weak. But I won’t be weak forever. 

When I feel like not going to derby, the girl who’s got a hit saved up for me is going.
When I don’t push myself as hard as I can go, the jammer I want to become gets that much further away.
My legs give out on me, I’m weak.

But I won’t be weak forever. 

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keepcalmandveganon: stfuhypocrisy: tehsunshine: therapsida: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT my brain just fell out my head via Buzzfeed I’m going to vomit. Someone please tell me this isn’t real life. I hate people. I really do. Hey! While we’re taking away women’s vote, let’s take away their right to not be beaten by their husbands! Let’s make women property again! Let’s treat them like cattle.. they obviously aren’t as smart as men.. After years of being taught to ‘submit’, I’m fucking sick of it, and seeing this makes my blood boil. 

keepcalmandveganon:

stfuhypocrisy:

tehsunshine:

therapsida:

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

my brain just fell out my head

via Buzzfeed

I’m going to vomit.

Someone please tell me this isn’t real life.

I hate people. I really do.

Hey! While we’re taking away women’s vote, let’s take away their right to not be beaten by their husbands! Let’s make women property again! Let’s treat them like cattle.. they obviously aren’t as smart as men.. 

After years of being taught to ‘submit’, I’m fucking sick of it, and seeing this makes my blood boil. 

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